T.T So sad, but even if all the ashes fly away, some will fix in you and you will just take it out if you try so hard, if not this will be with you until the both of you became one. I hope that you can find someone to bring you all the love that you need and make you happier. See this gif make me want hug him (laughs)
Well if you feeling that way it`s too late because the pain that you feel is the hole in your chest what someone or sometthing left.... I know its an old story but time will close it and only a scar will be left.